Im walking away with my heart drippin

with blood that you stab openly.
I still affort to walk even though what you did is hurting

and im dying.

I really cant forget where else forgiving.

Every single sweet memories turns to be brutal.
Sometimes i told myself

theres no point crying for you

and hoping for the beautiful.
Where i know it will never be one.
Sometimes i told myself theres no point being sad on you leaving me

and realise maybe "The Whom"

just want me to go through the bricks that he install for me.
No point for me asking and hoping for your love where i know

im just your "Rebound" and "Conquest".
No point for me to be here waiting and waiting

and now i realise whats infront of me.

I regret about my own self.

Nothing matters to you still waiting here.
What did i do wrong until you left me alone.
Am i suppose to take it as you already have a new mankind.
You change without me realising.
Maybe because i was too much concentrating on you

or maybe because i love you too deeply.
That really happen between us.
Now i just leave everything to "Whom" i should believe in.
I accept whole heartedly.

I just pray for your happiness and put in faith

and move on living

and walking slowly but

this i must say my heart is trap in your heart.
Now everything is over.
I really hope you accept it sincerely and hope that i could forgive you.
I just wanna say goodbye my love.

Why did you runaway.

I feel so lonely.

I really want you by my side like before.

Where did you go away.

I miss you so.

I find you everywhere and

i lost being pampered and you're having fun outside.

Where did you go running away.

I been finding.

Where's your promises and swearing

Im the Only One
that you gave me.
What mistakes did i do to you and

what wrong move did i make until
you runaway and i lose you.
Inside i keep it deeply.

The Memories between

You and Me.

Im trying to understand what happen.
Maybe i was harsh or my attitude

until Our Love was destroy.

I always said You're the Only One.

Maybe to you all that is meaningless.

What do you mean you still wanna make friends.
I treasure the love that i given you

without bearing the consquences.
Now i realise what is Heart Feelings.
Without you here by my side

there's no meaning im in this state.
Is this what i get for being sincere

until i forgot my own self.
Why am i here still waiting

and loving
even though my heart you cut through deep.
Never ever thought of hating you for what you did.
Now i realise to myself

all the promises you never meant it.
Just let me be here healing my own wounds

and while im here

i will keep waiting and waiting.

Even if there's alot of bricks and sacrifices

i will go through it without thinking

untill i cut my veins.

It wasn't long

since you left me.

I wonder howI wonder why.

Did leave me.

It broke apart.

I fell apart.

How can you do this to me.

Was i right?Am i wrong?

Why won't you tell me.

Did i go out with other girls?

Am i a flirt?

If i were to stab you in your heart.

Would it hurt?
If i told you i loved you.

would you reply.
Or would you stand there and look at me.

As you watch me as i die.
Here i amonce againstanding alone where you left me.

How did we became like this.

Was it my fault that you're unhappy.

Now you left me.

With a question without a answer at the end of April...
And so onI move on forget about the past.

Life goes on for the memories that i have will there for be burnt into ash.

I guess youwasn't the one for me.

At first

I was too blind to see.

I hate you

for what you did to me.

You played me.

I was stupid.
And nowyou see me killing myself.

For what you done to me.

Fall off from my two wheel

and still get up.

Forcing myself in everything i do.

Does it hurt you?

Each day past.

Each night past.

Im still standing just to get you outta my system.
Now you know how powerful you are.

Till im forcing myself thru all the bricks ahead of me.

Restless sleep.

Falling sick.

Blood coughing.

Temp higher.

Skidded off.

Five days.

Four nights.

And so on to come.