.May 2, 2009 ' 11:47:00 AM Y
My misery
My history
Here i am with nobody.
Walking all alone
on my lonely street.
Standing tall on my own feet.
I cant believe this happen to me.
You left me standing to face reality.
Im standing again.
To release the pain.
Here i am my melody.
Asking you to stay with me.
Here i am my melody.
I force myself to work when i actually cant.
Been falling sick till i dont know how.
Got myself in accident till i lost count.
Everything i do now is because i want to get you of my mind.
I been bleeding bad.
But you can't see my blood It's nothing
but some feelings that i always hide.
I've always been a fighter and
fight thru every single thing but
im so weak when you were here
and i cant fight thru
Now your picture that i took and put it in my cell.
Are just memories of a different life
Some that made us laugh
some that made us cry
One that made i have to say goodbye
Seeing you popup on my cell
how i wish you were mine.
Touching my cell
looking upon you and i say
"You're the only one who caught my eyes on fire"
No one have suceeded to do so except you.
How i wish i could say this upon looking in your eyes
"You look so wonderful.
Youre everything I need and more"
Even though i dont know you well
i feel i know you everything.
I just dont want you to realise how much i love you.
I really do.
When the first time i hand you your meal.
I went lost of words.
I was shock
lost
I dont know what to do.
Have a quick words and quickly walkaway.
I know i was rude.
I just cant help it.
My body was melting
and my knees are shaking.
My heart is pounding to pieces.
How much i feel so lonely when baba and mama leaving soon.
less than a month now.
What gonna happen to me.
I dont know.
Now i know when im gonna serve the nation.
I'm so sorry Baby
Maybe i should just pack up and leave
and only return when i need so.
Leaving without you realising that im gone.
But i want you to know this if im gone.
I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you
